Saturday, September 19, 2015

Simply Love

Loving someone and being in love are two entirely different things. And when the two clash, it's a myriad of emotions. One wants to you do the right thing while the other is blind. Conflicted emotions are the worst. Why can't love be simple?

Or maybe it is. And if it's not, it's probably not meant to be. But they say all relationships go through hardships. So is that not love? Do you work towards love? Is love even the ultimate thing? I'm not a romantic. The idea nauseates me. But I believe in simple love - family, friendships, high school crushes...but most importantly, loving yourself. Because if you love yourself, you'll see your flaws and if not accept them, try to help yourself change them for the better.

I guess love has different forms. It's really how you and your experiences that allow you to define and perceive it in your own unique way.

And before I get a million questions as to why I posted this, here's the inspiration:

rmdrk - Instagram

Saturday, September 5, 2015

I couldn't decide which blog to post this on but since all my sentimental posts are on this one, including the last "Good bye" post when I left CEP, I decided to post this one here too! :)

Sigh. I don't even know where to start. I know I write a lot about change, its inevitability, its heart wrenching pain, it being a new chapter and so on...but it's easy to preach than to practice. A huge change for me is in the happening and that's saying goodbye to Swansea, for now I hope. I always say I'll be back...just to revisit the place, the memories...

Having said that, the last three years have been the most amazing journey of my life. I grew to be the person I am today (or so I like to believe) because of Swansea, the education, the people and most importantly, the independence that led to responsibility (again, I hope).

If had to start thanking people and jotting down memories from day 1 on this post, it would be endless. Nevertheless, I have a long list of people who have made the experience of Swansea what it is and I know I wouldn't want to have it any other way :) All you guys, you brought out the good, the bad and the evil (I had to :P) in me - (this is the part where I tried jotting down names, but there are way too many!)

So having failed at that, you know who you are. You hold a special place in my heart and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for making Swansea home :)

It's difficult to say goodbye, but it's even more difficult to let go of the memories. But as rightly put, it's better to always look forward but mainly, live in the present. As said correctly from The Second Best Exotic Marigold Hotel, "There is no present like the time." :)

Swansea, you will forever be my second home.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Moving On...

I think the main reason we don't like moving on is because it's a cause for change. And as humans, we don't like change. Which is weird considering we don't like eating the same thing everyday...

But sometimes you don't know it, and life gives you the most inevitable change possible...and in that moment, you hate life. You don't want it to change. You want things to be the way they are. But why are we so resistant to change? I mean, not all change is bad. In fact, most of the changes are good. We don't know it because we're programmed to think they're bad.

When I left Zambia for India, I didn't know what to expect. I was very much against the idea of moving to India. I didn't want to be around people I don't know and most certainly did not want a change in cultural and social norms. But when I got there, I understood how I was completely wrong about India. I grew to love the place, and not just because the food was nice but because I made some amazing friends!

After establishing a fantastic social circle in India, I didn't want to leave that and move to Swansea. Don't get me wrong, I was excited to move, but at the same time, I wasn't sure if people abroad would be as chilled and fun as the friends I made in Bangalore.

Yet again, my expectations proved me wrong. I met, once more, an amazing group of friends in Swansea and they made the experience all the more culturally fulfilling and equally fun! And having never lived by the sea, Swansea certainly made me a beach lover.

Now that this journey has come to an end, I'm moving back to India. And because my previous experience with India was amazing, I'm not scared of this change. It's giving me an opportunity to move on. I've made some sensible decisions in Swansea, but also some rather stupid ones. And I have a chance to move on. I am definitely scared to move on from student life to work life. But that's change innit? Inexorable. Inevitable. Surprising. And a mix of good and bad. If you want to move on, you gotta let go of the past, let go of expectations and most importantly, let go of yourself. And if you understood that, you, my friend, are ready for a change :)

Saturday, August 8, 2015


A lot of things we do are because of social norms. Kinda like, "What will the neighbours think?"

Why do we have to do things because our neighbours are going to say something? I don't even talk to my neighbours. The problem is that people always need some sort of gossip to talk about. If I came home with a boy, who could be my cousin for all they know, it would still turn out be the gossip of our neighbourhood..."Oh you know! She brought home a boy and they locked the doors!" Do you even realise how disturbing that is?!

If it's not that, it's something else. There's always something else. "Haan beta. You've finished your masters. Now time to get married uh?" Uh no. There's something called "a job." I didn't go abroad, work hard, have my dad invest in me so much, to just get married. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against marriage. It'll happen. Just not now. And not for the sake of making society happy.

It's even little things. Just the other day, my friend and I were talking about how if we don't attend a dinner that some family friend has invited us for, that's it. That's enough material for them to start - "She didn't even say hello and I personally called her and invited here!" No you didn't. You called my mother. Do you even know my number? -_-

Like seriously. Einstein was right - for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. In this case, it's just an opposite reaction.

Disclaimer - not a personal attack at anyone. So don't go and speak around and say, "oh, she wrote a blog post about this and that. How could she?" -_-

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Love should not be taken lightly

Do you know what it's like to love someone unconditionally? To listen to and remember every little detail of their numerous stories...dated back to even a year ago. To go through their mood swings with them - their highs, mehs and lows. To create an abundance of memories - pranks, arguments, parties, silence, hugs, tickles, distance...

Distance, misunderstandings, miscommunication, being taken for granted, separate lives - circumstances that end a love like that. Overwhelming. I'll never put myself through that again....invest myself in someone so much.

The fear of losing someone you love is something we all go through. But that's love. It never leaves you. It always surrounds you. You rarely see it. You choose not to see it. You're taken for granted and it is gut wrenching. But who have you been taking for granted? .

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Hindi Movies and The Friend 'Back Up'

After having watched Kuch Kuch Hota Hai and going through a nostalgic trip down memory lane, the movie brought on a different perspective from the happy ending it offers. As the same with the following movies with similar story lines: Cocktail, Mujhse Dosti Karoge, Jo Jeeta Wahi Sikandar, Yes mainly Bollywood movies :P

So here goes...

Intense and deep relationships between friends can lead to complications. Not all. Not some. But a good number. If not between the friends, between others. One way or another, our relationships with individuals somehow unite as a whole and affect each other. Or maybe that's just how I see it.

A friendship between opposite sexes starts off very simple. And many have maintained to be simple. But some complications can arise - misunderstandings, one liking the other, getting into relationships therefore abandoning the friendship, jealousy and many other things.

A friendship between opposite sexes also can lead to a "back up" plan...ya know, the one that took place in the famous TV show too - FRIENDS. "By the age of 40, if we're both single, we'll marry each other." Just perfect.

...but not when one of the two people likes the other. Being a back up option for someone you're in love with can turn out to be the worst feeling on earth. But you don't like feeling this way because you don't want it to affect the beautiful friendship that has bloomed. It's a frenzy, confusing and by far one of the worst emotional journeys to go through.

I have no advice whatsoever. Cutting off ties seems to be the most practical solution. But is it really? Why should you abandon a friendship just because your feelings are in the way? Then again, don't you have any self respect? Do you really want to end up with a guy who you're in love with, but looks at you as a back up option?

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"Cutting Ties" :P
(Also, I like to think I'm funny)
Relationships can be very complicated. We don't realise it till strong emotions come in to...well...test the relationship.

Looks like Anjali managed to get a happy ending after years and years. Does it work that way in today's era? Do let me know! :)

Monday, June 15, 2015


This show got me thinking. There are so many underlying theories, discussions and thoughts that can come about by watching just one episode of the show.


There are 8 people, all connected - they all can feel what one can feel. They can communicate with each other through eye connections even if they are in different parts of the world - and they are - UK, USA, Germany, India, Kenya and a few others.


> Falling in love within the 8 of you can be a form of narcissism.
> Isn't this how some of us are? Invested so much in a relationship that we tend to be with the other, even if not physically, but in some form thanks to technology.
> Do people like this actually exist? Is this what telepathy is?
> It's like a messed up inception - how do you know what's real and what's not?
> Character development is sorta not there. You just figure out the character by instinct, which is a risk on the writers' part but well done I believe. It's easy to understand them given the connection they all share.
> My favourite character has to be Capheus, not just because he's from Africa (though that was an added factor), but because he's the only guy who seems to do what's right. No time for games. Also, he enjoys the simple things in life. Like the scene with Riley on the plane has to be one of my favourite scenes. 


"Who we are is less relevant than what we are."

"There's a huge difference between what we work for and what we live for."

"Life and death are always so mixed up together; some beginnings are endings and some endings become beginnings."

"Sometimes when you make a mistake, you've two choices - either live with it, or fix it."